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“This is so unfair! I am supposed to take care of you,” he said to me in anguish when he
          learned of the terrifying diagnosis. And so, even as the cancer spread, he continued my morning

          blood pressure checks until he was too weak. His boundless concern resonated in his last words
          before intubation: an apology for keeping me awake as nurses cleared his throat.
               Two weeks later, riddled with tubes and kept alive by a ventilator, the palliative doctor
          offered the agonizing choice: remove life support. Torn between keeping him with me and ending

          his suffering, I asked his wishes. His eyes, pools of love and sadness, met mine. Perhaps he saw
          my torment, for he signaled “No.” So, Bhanu clung on for weeks, until his body, ravaged and
          exhausted, succumbed to the inevitable, bringing an end to a life that measured its worth in love,
          sacrifice, and devotion.

               “Ubi ego, ibi tu. Ubi tu, ibi ego. Semper et una.” (“Where I am, you are there. Where you
          are, I am there. Always and together.”)
               As Bhanu’s ashes floated down the Chao Phya River, I felt my life slipping away with them.
          Yet, amidst the searing pain, his words from 45 years ago offered solace: “I want to spend my

          life with you.” He did.


























































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